Moving on from the past...

The other day I talked about baggage. I know I need to deal with the past to keep moving forward in today and tomorrow. I think our minds bury things for a good reason and I'm not looking to remember anything new. But I do need to deal with the things that are there. So last night I talked to my husband. It's crazy that I've not talked about this with him in the 13 yrs we've been together. Really it's something him knowing will help with his own insecurities I think yet I've not talked about it. Anyway, he was his usual understanding loving self and though I didn't actually talk about the details I told him of it and that I was planning on talking to my therapist about it next week. I'm hopeful opening it up a little will let me let it go more. So that is my plan.


Has any of this caused me to want to eat? Surprisingly no it hasn't. I kept to my plan yesterday of drinking a ton of water and the scale was 3 lbs down from yesterday. I plan on continuing to drink my water today so that hopefully by weigh-in tomorrow I'll be back to my low weight.

Tonight is gym night with hubby. We are doing 2 circuits of the new workout so we will be there several hours I'm guessing. I'm hoping he'll have some pleasant determination tonight and not complain as much lol. Hopefully my knee won't bug me and his ankle won't bug him. I'm looking forward to going. It always makes me tired but also feel good I got it done.

I made a big pot of soup last night so had that for dinner last night and lunch today. I plan on having it for dinner again tonight and then for lunch the rest of the week. I always do better when I make a big pot of soup every week. It's great with the cold weather here too. I'm sure someone will ask for the recipe so I'll just post it now lol.

Throw Together Soup

pam or tablespoon of olive oil
3 cans any kind of beans (this time I used garbonzo, black and pigeon peas)(rinse extra good to get rid of some sodium)
1/2 cup frozen peas
1 can french style green beans (no salt)
1-2 cups shredded carrots (I have a salad shooter so it makes it easy)
1-2 large onions, chopped small
2 cloves minced garlic
1 large can crushed tomatoes (low sodium if you can find it)
1 large can diced tomatoes (low or no sodium if you can find it)
chicken boullion or broth (low or no sodium)
leftover cooked chicken breast, cut in bite size pieces (you can omit this if you don't have any or put a fresh cut up breast in with the onions and carrots to cook)
2-4 cups water to fill the pot (I have a really large pot)
lots of pepper and whatever other spices you like to taste
I add 2 packets of splenda too (do the same thing to my spaghetti sauce)

spray large pot with pam or put in oil, toss in onions, carrots and garlic, cook till tender. Throw all other ingredients in and bring to boil, lower heat and simmer for about 30 mins till good and hot.

It's a really quick easy soup that is super hearty and a whole meal in itself. I tried to figure out the calories and stuff on it last night but with adding water and then just eating it bowl by bowl I'm not sure. I'm guessing about 250 calories for a 2 cup bowl.

I'm going to include my recipe for my protein bars too since I'm on a roll.

Banana-Peanut Butter Protein Bars

3 medium ripe bananas, mashed
2 ½ cups rolled oats
1 tablespoon cinnamon 1 teaspoons nutmeg (I just put 1 1/2 tablespoons of cinnamon and omit the nutmeg, all what you like)
2 tablespoons natural peanut butter (I prefer chunky)
1 teaspoon vanilla
1/3 cup splenda (I use 1/2 cup)
1/2 cup egg beater (or 1/2 cup egg whites)
1/2 cup skim or 1% milk
1/2 cup applesauce
3 scoops protein powder (chocolate)
1/2 cup raisins

Preheat oven 300 degrees, spray cake pan with pam. Mix ingredients in a large bowl. Pour into cake pan cook for 45-50 mins. Let cool before cutting. Cut into 8 pie slices. Refrigerate, will keep a week or so.

230 calories each

These are extremely filling and a much better alternative to store bought protein bars.

For a sweet potato/pecan version I just nuke an extra large sweet potato, scrape out the inside, mash, and add 1/4 cup chopped pecans instead of the banana and peanut butter.

If you like oatmeal you'll like them a lot I think, if you don't I still think you will like them ok. I make them every Sunday and eat them every work day for breakfast and sometimes an extra one if I'm on the go and need something quick.

I made them for my TOPS ladies one week and they seemed to really like them.

I was reading on the BFFM inner circle that I'm a member of and one of the moderator guys said he makes out a goal list everyday and includes every little thing he wants to get done even brushing his teeth, he breaks it down in time incriments too. I thought that was a great idea so I think I'm going to start doing that to see if it helps me accomplish more during my day. I'm sure it will since I feel like far to often I waste a lot of time at night.

Well till tomorrow...