What a pain in the rear

Well I finally got some pictures up. I didn't want to post them in my blog but rather have a link to them. Boy what a pain in the rear that was. It's now midnight and I've finally gotten it to work. Then I wanted to update my picture at the top with my newest picture and that was an even bigger pain lol. You would think I could figure this stuff out lol. Oh well, at least I finally did. Hopefully from here on it will be easier.


My day has been an all around pain in the rear really lol. Ok, first off, the brakes went out on my van on Saturday while we were driving 3 hours up the road to my girlfriend's house. We thankfully got there in one piece after putting in like 2 quarts of brake fluid. We made it home too. But then this morning I had to drive the van myself to the repair place which was scary scary. But I made it and $500+ later it is fixed though I can't pick it up till tomorrow.


Then my stupid 3d model at work doesn't seem to want to do right so I spent all day trying to figure out what the darn problem was. Of course I was suppose to have the drawings for it done 2 weeks ago. Sigh.


Well while I'm complaining I might as well continue lol. So then hubby and I go to the gym to workout tonight and it's like so packed it's almost impossible to even workout. My anxiety was so high I could barely get through my workout. My hands were shaking and I was all nervous inside. I don't know what the heck gets into me when a lot of people are around. Anyway, I made it through and got home.


On a good note I didn't eat over anything that happened today. I did eat at my girlfriend's house on Saturday and Sunday though. I'm not sure what she was thinking knowing I'm trying to lose weight and eat healthy. What does she do, but cook lots of fattening crap food. Of course I tried to eat it. My gall bladder wasn't cooperating very well though which was a good thing I guess. I still ate way to much junk while I was there. It was back to that sick way too like when I was at my mother-in-laws at Thanksgiving where I was sneaking around in the middle of the night eating. What the heck is my deal with that I have no idea. I did have a nice visit with my girlfriend though it felt like old times.

I haven't been on the scale yet to see if I did any damage. I figure I'll hit the gym again hard tomorrow and hope for the best at weigh-in on Wednesday. It's that time of month too so I'm not expecting to much this week. It would be nice to stay the same at least.

My one highlight of the day today was getting to write on my co-workers whiteboard 47 lbs. I've been trying so hard to get below the 50 lbs to go mark. I still can't believe I've lost 151 lbs from my all time high weight. When I was looking through pictures tonight I kept thinking "wow was I really that big". I always felt big and knew I was big but I think even then I had a distorted image of myself. Even now I feel really big though in comparison I look like half myself.

I was also amazed at how much smaller I look from September, just 13 lbs ago. It's definitely the Book of Muscle workouts that are helping to shape my body so well. I've dropped a whole clothing size since September, from an 18 to a 16.

I know I still have a ways to go but I really believe I can get there. It might take me most of the year but I have faith.

Till tomorrow...