Weigh-in Wednesday

Weigh-in isn't until tonight but I did take a peek at the scale this morning. It's funny to me that some weeks it seems to have more control over me than others. This week for some reason I've weighed almost everyday but yet it doesn't seem to be affecting me. I'm hopeful that I'll be back to my old low tonight. I'm kind of having that "I don't care" attitude about it. Not that I don't care but just that I've done well this week with food and exercise and the scale will just be what it is.

I've been in a weird mood this week. Been thinking a lot about my family (sisters, niece) but it hasn't been stressing me as much as it usually does. I've also been missing them. Wishing I could see them soon. I'm not sure I can make that happen but I'm feeling like I should try. It seemed most of my life no matter how things were going the family could always still get together and try to have a nice time. It didn't always work out but it seemed like we all still wanted to try.

I miss my sisters, I really do. As children we went through a LOT together. I always felt we would always still have each other's back no matter what. It seems lately (several years now) though we have drifted so far apart that I wonder now if it's possible to come back together. My 2 sisters don't talk at all now to each other. I haven't seen either of them since Christmas and haven't talked with one since then and the other only after my gallbladder surgery. Anyway, my thought for today is to make an effort to them both (my niece too). I'm not sure how to do that but I want to.

As for me, I'm having some abdominal pain again. I don't know what the heck is going on in there but I'm ready for it to be normal again. I'm sure it's from my workout at the gym last night. I did take it lighter on the ab exercises but it was a tough upper body workout. It was the first time doing it too. I guess maybe I need to go down in weight even more or maybe I just need to only do cardio for a few weeks. Hopefully the pain will be gone by tomorrow. I hate the idea of giving up the weight training but I don't want to hurt anything in there either.

I did my couch to 5K week 3 day 3 last night so tomorrow I'll be moving on to week 4 which will be a bit tougher. I did end up putting in 4 extra minutes of jogging last night which didn't seem to bad (13 mins jogging out of 30). I am having a little knee pain today but I'm thinking it's from doing the elliptical for my 10 min warm-up the past 2 workouts. It just seems like if I do anything different when it comes to my cardio my knees act up on me. So my plan is to go back to the treadmill for my warm-ups.

Hubby went to the gym with me last night. He walks 65 mins on the treadmill 3 days a week these days. I think that's pretty good but it seems to just be keeping him maintaining and not losing weight. I wish he would get back to weight training. Maybe I should get him a few sessions with the one trainer guy we both like. He did take a peek at the scale too and it looks like he's dropped the 10 lbs he gained during vacation so that's good at least.

I think both of us need to step up our game some. In the past 8 months I've lost about 20 lbs and he's stayed about the same. We definitely both have more weight we can lose so we need to get to it.

Tonight for my TOPS meeting we are working on our workbooks still. We are working on chapter 4 which is about motivation. I'm really trying hard to find more things to motivate me. I definitely think once I'm able to run I'm going to join the local running club. I think it would be nice to have a group run every weekend which is what they do. I think I'm going to join up the whole family too so that at least the nephew can run with me too if he wants to. I just need more of a social life outside work and the gym, hubby does too.

I'll try to do another vacation post tonight, only 2 more days to go.

Till later...