I feel like I'm doing ok this week, better than ok really. My sleep is still not sorted out yet with doing the morning workouts but I didn't go back to bed today so that's an accomplishment. I'm hoping by Monday I will be back in an earlier routine and giving myself that time alone I really need in the mornings.
I'm looking forward to a weekend of gardening and being outside. I'm sure hoping the weather is as nice as it was last weekend. I never check the weather so will have to wait till my co-worker informs me as he seems to most days lol.
Feels like the week is going by pretty well. Marie still has soccer and basketball so that's taking up my evening time. Last night Mike took her to soccer and I went to TOPS. It was just a discussion meeting which is always nice. One of the ladies that went to Fall rally brought her laptop and I got to see some of the pictures she took. I actually thought I looked pretty good in them which isn't usually the case when I see pictures of myself. At weigh in yesterday I was 189.2 and though I'd much rather have that number in the 170's I'm really pretty ok with myself these days. I'm really trying hard not to focus on the scale but more on what I'm doing for myself on a daily basis.
Talked to my mom yesterday, she seems to be doing pretty well. Though I wish she would give up driving. She said she forgot her way home the other night. I'm hoping it won't take something bad happening for her to finally realize she shouldn't be on the road.
I haven't talked about it on here but it's something that is on my mind with it getting closer. Kevin will be moving to NY in a few weeks. He texted several weeks ago and asked if he could stop here on his way and spend the night. Of course I look forward to seeing him whenever I can so I said sure. He then told me that he would have his buddy with him, again fine. Then he told me that his girlfriend would be moving with him to NY. I haven't mentioned her on here because he had only been dating her a month when he came in Sept. So he will have only known her about 3 months when they move in together. The other thing is she has a 4 yr old daughter.
It's a lot to take in. Kevin has never stayed in a relationship that long, he is only 20 yrs old and honestly I think he needs more time on his own sorting himself out before having a ready made family. This woman (she's 25) and her child have been through a lot. I'm not going to tell her business here but my heart does go out to her and her little girl. It makes me want to help them. I just want Kevin happy and in a healthy loving relationship. Can this be it for him? Well of course I can't know that and with such a short time of them knowing each other I'm doubtful they can either. I hope it works out for all of them. My advice to him was put the little girl's best interest first. I hope they both will do that. I am looking forward to meeting them though.
As for me, well I'm hanging in here and I'm trying to put things in place to help move me forward. I'm enjoying my happiness challenge. Yesterday I made little flower bouquets for the ladies at work and one for Marie. I think they all appreciated it and it brightened their day. I'm not even sure what day I'm on now but have decided to just continue to try to do as much happiness spreading as I can.
Well I best get to work.
Till next time...